I left before you did

Intro
There was a coffee going cold by the bed
Your coat was hanging by the door
I kept telling myself I was barely holding on
While you were holding on to us alone

Verse 1
I stopped answering when you called my name
Let the curtains stay closed all day
You'd ask me where the old me went
I'd say I didn't know what to say
Every little problem became my war
Every silence meant you wanted more
I made my pain the center of the room
And watched you disappear a little too soon

Pre-chorus
I was so busy trying to save my life
I never saw you losing yours beside mine

Chorus
I left before you did
I broke the heart I couldn't bear to lose
I thought I was the only one hurting
I never stopped to think about you
Now I'm learning how to breathe again
Learning I don't have to run
But you were already slipping through my hands
While I was trying to save myself from the sun

Verse 2
I found a room where I could finally speak
Said the things I'd buried for years
Someone taught me pain could have a name
And I didn't have to drown in it here
I started waking with the blinds pulled wide
Started finding pieces of myself inside
But every time I reached to tell you I'd changed
There was a little more distance in your name

Pre-chorus
I was finding my way back into the light
While you were learning how to live without me in your life

Chorus
I left before you did
I broke the heart I couldn't bear to lose
I thought I was the only one hurting
I never stopped to think about you
Now I'm learning how to breathe again
Learning I don't have to run
But you were already slipping through my hands
While I was trying to save myself from the sun

Bridge
Maybe love is knowing when to hold
And knowing when to let someone go
I wish I'd learned it when you were mine
But some lessons come too late in life

Chorus
I left before you did
And I'd take it back if I could choose
Not because I want to change your ending
Just because I finally understand you
You loved me when I couldn't love myself
You stayed when I made it hard to stay
And if loving me meant losing yourself
Then walking away was love in its own way

Outro
I'm not the man who left you anymore
I just wish I'd found him before you walked out that door